I don’t have a strong vision for what the blog should be.  It is a playground for me, a place to try different styles, tone, themes, etc.  It is a place to be creative.  I imagine at some point everything will jell, and the themes will narrow, my style will coalesce, and the blog will be a more definable thing.

But for now, it is a random mass of thoughts and that’s okay.  It actually bothered me that I didn’t have a theme, and it stopped me from starting for a long time.  Then I finally started, and I thought it would be about writing and productivity.  But then, when I didn’t have anything to say on those topics I didn’t write at all.  When I restarted the blogging/writing habits, I gave myself permission to write about anything.  This is actually pretty scary, since I am revealing multiple facets of my life.  I very much compartmentalize various aspects/ realms of my life, so discussing all of them in a single place is somewhat stressful.

Not only is it scary, but it is a slog.  I don’t necessarily know what I should write about.  I’m not happy with my content or my production schedule.  Having a blog I’m proud of seems like something from the very distant future.  I keep telling myself that I need to keep posting, and I’ll get better, but this habit is running on will-power alone, which is not a good place to be.

I don’t have any great ideas on how to make it easier, other than to keep writing, and hope that things change…